Two Fish, Three Fish, No Fish

Hey everyone, sorry you haven’t heard/seen me lately. I forgot how much my Fibromyalgia hates winter and cold. I was in more pain than normal all of last month. I went through some of your blog posts but that was all you were going to get from me. Haha! Around Thanksgiving I had a bitch of a migraine that wouldn’t disappear. Finally on the 5th straight day, I knew I had to go in and ask for something different/stronger than my Percocet. My sister, M, was kind enough to pick me up and take me to acute care so I could get a shot at the top of my butt.🙂 It had been quite some time since I had to get a pain shot and whewwww it burned. Now, I am mostly feeling better.

And naturally, if it’s not me having health issues it’s Storm. Yes, she is still having issues with her leg and it started to swell up again. Either she opened her old wound or it burst open on its own. I have her blood/fluids on my floors, furniture and blankets because it is slowly draining. I’m impatiently waiting for her wound to heal so I can start deep cleaning. On Monday, I take her in to get an x-ray to see if that will show anything unusual. Sigh…this damn dog is getting to be too expensive for someone on just a Social Security income.😦

See that big 'ol ball of fluid on what would be her kneecap?
See that big ‘ol ball of fluid on what would be her kneecap?

Thankfully, I no longer have a dating life so I am able to take care of Storm and myself. I really hate the dating life. The guy I really liked saw me for a few more weeks. One night we had a REALLY great night at my place. His wall finally came down a little. I found out he loves peanut butter too so we talked about it for about five straight minutes. What started our convo was that he asked if I had something to munch on and I showed him my box of peanut butter and chocolate chip granola bars. He said he was going to eat the whole box and I thought he was joking so I said that it was fine. He ended up eating the whole box! It was a brand new box! Haha! We were cuddling on the couch and it had been almost three weeks since seeing him last so I said I had missed him and he said he missed me too. Shortly after he took off so I could sleep. I texted him the next day and I got no response. I texted him the day after and the day after that. Nothing. Okay buddy, I can take a hint. I don’t want to assume but I think maybe he got the feels for me and that scared him. I don’t find it a coincidence that I express my feelings by saying that I missed him and him disappearing after that night.

I decided to meet up with another guy to see how that went. We started to watch a movie and he didn’t waste any time in pulling me in to cuddle. Red flag! I thought that I would see how it went it a little longer. He asked me if I wanted to know anything else about him and I mentioned that I couldn’t think of anything at that time. He said that he wanted to know something else about me so I asked what he wanted to know. He said, “I want to know if you are a good kisser.” I giggled, he was being so corny. So I thought, sure what the hell, and we started making out. Um, wow… Within minutes, the bottom half of my whole face was covered with his slobber. After an agonizing amount of time, I finally had to pull away and casually wipe my face.

I thought maybe I could try again but try to stay in charge and show him how to kiss me. I moved closer annnnnnnnd he stuck his tongue out in between his lips… Bahahahaha! He didn’t try put his tongue back in, he just sat there like that. HOW DO YOU EVEN RESPOND TO THAT?!?! I would lean in like I was going to kiss him,  but even then he wouldn’t pull it back in so I would awkwardly pull away. I tried a couple times yet nothing changed, so I just gave up and acted like I wanted to cuddle. Haha. He decided to give me a hickey on my neck. What the hell?!?! Are we back in high school?!?! And holy hell it HURT. It hurt so much that I could only grit my teeth in pain and not think about speaking up. Sure enough it was deep purple and hurt for a couple days after. *Shivers* It was such a bad date. He was a “one and done.” Soon after that, I deleted my profile on POF. dating

Book Review – How To Be Sick

I normally don’t write book reviews on here but felt I needed to get the word out about a recent one that I finished. Mostly because it has to do with being ill/sick and I know some Spoonies/Lupies follow me. The book I am talking about is called, How to be Sick by Toni Bernhard.

As pictured, I bought the paperback version but you can also purchase this book as an e-book or Audiobook. I like to get my “nerd” on and highlight things to remember, and sometimes an electronic highlighter just doesn’t cut it (I love office supplies!).🙂

I am pretty much making this my sickness Bible. Toni offers a great amount of examples which helps the reader think of ways they can apply it to their lives. And if you are a Byron Katie fan, Toni mentions her and includes some of her quotes.

Here is a list of the chapters to give you a better example of what you will be reading.

  1. Getting sick – A romantic trip to Paris
  2. Staying sick – This can’t be happening to me
  3. The Buddha tells it like it is
  4. The Universal Law of Impermanence
  5. Who is sick?
  6. Finding joy in the life you can no longer lead
  7. Soothing the body, mind and heart
  8. Using compassion to alleviate your suffering
  9. Facing the ups and downs of chronic illness with equanimity
  10. Getting off the wheel of suffering
  11. Tonglen – Spinning straw into gold
  12. With our thoughts we make the world
  13. Healing the mind by living in the present moment
  14. What to do when (it seems) you can’t do anything
  15. Zen helps
  16. Communicating with care
  17. The struggle to find community in isolation

As the last chapter finishes, the author has a guide to help with specific challenges (I loved this part!!). A couple challenges include: Blaming yourself for being sick, feeling ignored by family and friends, and suffering due to uncertainty about the future.

I want to thank my cousin, Rebecca, for recommending this book. And of course, I would like to thank the author for writing it.🙂 The author has two other books for sale, How to Wake Up and How to Live Well. I currently have How to Live Well on my bookshelf and can’t wait to start it!🙂

 

 

Why I Blog: Creativity And The Need To Give It Away

Wow. Such a fabulous post! I never thought about blogging to the depth as she did. But she puts it all into words and sentences and it comes out perfect.

Adventures in Wonderland

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It’s still a surprise for me to discover that I’m a blogger. I never meant to be. It came about by accident. Six years ago Don and I were about to embark on a six-week journey to the Cook Islands, Australia, and Vietnam. I belong to an online forum for fans of figure skating. My forum friends encouraged me to share our adventure on the forum in the non-skating section. Without this invitation I never would have thought of documenting our journey other than with a few photographs.

I’m still not entirely comfortable with labeling myself as a blogger. This stems largely from a perception, which may or not be accurate, that most people don’t take blogging seriously. I suppose I don’t like being seen as a dilettante, even though I may be one. I’d like the occupation of blogging to be acknowledged as worthwhile even when there’s no financial…

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Update on Things

Hi everyone! I am super behind on everything that is WordPress: Comments, likes, views, replies, posting, etc. You name it and odds are I haven’t engaged in it for a while. And my reason? Coloring books again! Haha! I bought a couple news ones off Amazon because I wanted to learn how to use multiple colors for skin and hair (example: for skin you would use light peach, peach and red). I didn’t even touch my Kindle last week.

Other than my coloring obsession, not much else has been going on. I will do a different post regarding my love life (or lack there of). Storm has been difficult the last few months. Well, her leg anyway. She gets fluid in her leg that had ACL surgery. My vet can’t figure out why her leg is doing this and hell if I know. It got really bad a little over a month ago and my vet gave her an antibiotic and that seemed to help. Then it happened again a few weeks after that and he decided he was going to do another surgery and kind of check out the area to see why it isn’t completely healing. After some thinking and looking online I decided not to put her in surgery again. It was acting like an infection so my vet decided that we would go in the following Monday, he would get a sample of the fluid that drains out of her leg, and send that to a lab so they could try different medications on the sample and see which it would respond to. And of course the fluid went down over the weekend so when I brought her in on that Monday he wasn’t able to get a sample. Argh! Does anyone have any ideas of what it could be?

 

Last week I had an off/bad day. My bestie, N, bought me a full day of doggy daycare so I could “fully” relax by myself with no responsibilities! I felt better the next day so I decided that I was going to use it last Friday. I went in to drop Storm off but of course stayed to help out for an hour. Here are a couple shots that I took!🙂

I just love those bully smiles!🙂
This is River, one of the coworker’s dogs. She is seven months old
Another shot of that adorable smile! :)
Another shot of that adorable smile!🙂

One Fish

When you first join a dating website, it can get a bit overwhelming. I’m not trying to brag but I received a lot of emails all at once in the beginning. I can imagine a man sitting at his computer saying, “Oh! Fresh meat,” as he clicks on my profile. Thankfully there are less emails today.

I decided to finally meet one of the men that sent me an email. He started the email with calling me beautiful. Ha, yeah okay. I’m cute but don’t consider myself beautiful or gorgeous. Not unless I’m dolled up or something…. Anyway, I decided to check out his profile. He is a good looking man and fit. A guy that looks as good as that does not like a woman like me. I’m not trying to be negative, just realistic. He kept pressuring to meet me that night and finally I caved.

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This is not my first rodeo so I picked a safe place to meet him–at a park. We agreed to go for a walk with my dog because she was going a little stir crazy. He parked near me and actually looked like his picture. From the pictures, it made it difficult to see that he was a smaller frame. He was about my height (5’4″) or little shorter. Which is fine, I’ve dated a guy shorter than me before.

We chat for a moment then he mentioned that he had to pick up his brother at the airport in an hour (wait, weren’t we supposed to be on a date of some sorts??). I played along like we never made plans. We chatted for a couple more minutes then he drove off. He said he would get a hold of me after he took his brother home. I thought to myself, ‘Wow, he must have been so repulsed by me that he decided to make an excuse to ditch our plans.’ I apologized to Storm of the change of plans (i.e no walk) and we headed home.

I was surprised when he texted me later that night asking if I wanted to meet back up. I told him no and that I would another time, even though I had no intentions on doing so. Around this time is when I had decided to text one of my best friends, Nicolioli (my nickname for her haha). She wanted to know details about the guy and our meet, which I happily gave her.

Then he asked me to send a picture of my chest to him and I said no. Next he asked to come over and cuddle. I laughed and told him that I knew what cuddling led to. He was getting PUSHY and wouldn’t back down. He wanted to meet and it had to be THAT night. It’s not good to assume things, but I think it’s safe to say that he just wanted a piece of ass. I sent him a text stating, ‘I’m still saying no. And the more you don’t take my answer, the more I wonder.’ That finally shut him up.  Sure enough, a few hours later he texted again but I didn’t bother opening it.

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So, nothing too crazy happened but it makes me wonder what else will be sent my way.

If I could suggest one piece of advice to men about online dating it would be this: Think about what you use for your profile pictures. Seriously. They say a lot (or not a lot) about you. And I’m sure there are some guys yucking it up with putting a funny pic of them in their golden eight choices that they have. More than likely women will think it’s stupid if you think it’s funny.