Why??

I think the question you are wanting to ask me of the reason Storm was put down is “Why? Your other post mentioned she had some issues but that was part of the healing process.” I have more than one reason but it was mainly because it seemed the same thing was happening to her other paws.

One of her front paws
Her (only) back paw

 

To say it was a difficult decision to make is such an understatement. I have talked to my mom about this subject several times knowing what I should probably do, making the choice, but then not actually going through with it.

I kept hoping (and wishing) that she would finally get a break. I kept thinking that this would be the last problem–at least for some time. But that wasn’t the case.

Storm and I (mostly Storm) had been through hell from April to the beginning of this month. I honestly don’t know how I got through it all. The help of my mom and my sister kept me sane on the really scary parts. But overall it has taken a toll on me mentally. I am dumbfounded how it hasn’t started a shit storm with my Lupus and affected me physically. I think even though these last few months have sucked, it has brought me closer to my mom and sister.  These last few months I have seen just how much they love me. I am so blessed to have them in my life.

Although painful at times, love is a wonderful thing.

 

 

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Author: paws2smile

I am a geeky animal lover and have an American Bulldog named Storm. Storm is my everything. She helps keep me sane by being my companion pet. I am an expert in chronic pain as I have Systemic Lupus, Fibromyalgia and migraines. I was diagnosed with Lupus in 2000 and the rest followed after that year.

15 thoughts on “Why??”

  1. That looks awful and very painful. Did you ever find out what caused the sores? I know making that decision was a very hard one, but you had Storm’s best interest at heart. Bless you for that.

  2. I’m so sorry that the disease spread so rapidly. You clearly had no choice other than to end her suffering. It really sucks and I’m sure your heart will be aching for a long time.
    Gradually it will heal and you will be able to remember all the good times you and Storm had together.
    I’m really happy your family stepped up to be there for you when you needed them most. All the best Scifi

  3. Oh my goodness, that looked so painful! Only you will know when was the right time for her to be put down, forget about those that judge you for your decisions. I am happy to hear you had support from your mom and sister. I hope your lupus will not flare up, I know how that’s like..not fun!

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