A day after I wrote my last post, I became very ill. The nasty flu came to visit. And they are not joking about how horrible this season is. I threw up six times in eight hours! I hope I don’t experience something like that again for a long time.
Since I could not keep anything down, I skipped my doses of CBD oil. I also wasn’t sure if it could help when a person has the flu, so I left it out of my diet of saltine crackers.
A couple days passed and I started to take my morning and night doses again. Even today, six days after becoming sick, I still am mostly nauseous and am not able to eat exactly what I want.
I’m getting to the end of the bottle! I don’t think I can afford to continue taking it and that gives me anxiety. Even though it didn’t help with my bigger issues, it certainly helped with some of my smaller ones.
Just a couple shots of Benelli that I wanted to put up Wednesday which obviously never happened. 🙂 He has lost all his back (are they defined as “molars” as well?) teeth! And in two weeks he gets fixed. He’s getting to be such a big boy!
It has been months since I helped at doggy daycare. I (and Storm) stopped when Storm’s paw issues started. Even with four paws she would slide all over the floor there, so I knew I could no longer bring her when she only had three paws. But after Storm’s death I intentionally avoided it. I believe the power of puppies and that it might make me feel better but there were just too many memories there of her. That was HER place. She loved it there; once she knew where we were going she would go crazy. Even blocks away she would start to whine with excitement. One of the things I wanted to do with Storm before I put her down was to give her one last play at the daycare but that never happened. 😦
I know I need to socialize Benelli while he is young but I don’t get out much. Winter and cold bring pain for me. But after constantly telling myself and other people that I needed to bring him there, I finally took him on Friday. I was nervous hours before going in and had a cry session knowing Storm wasn’t coming with me. But Benelli and I finally made it.
He was terrified. I wanted to ease him into it so I placed him stay in the small dog section (which only had two dogs) for the first 30 minutes. He was not a happy camper and screamed (seriously, he was loud) at me the whole time. I then brought him out where I was in the big/regular section. He cried the whole time and clung to my leg. I laughed and would tell him that he is fine. After 30 minutes in the big/regular area I knew he had enough for the first time and brought him home.
Even though the last time I experienced the puppy stage eight years ago with Storm, I can still remember how frustrating it was. Funny thing is, even though I remember it, dealing with another puppy is like I forgotten about it, even though I haven’t. Does that make sense? I hope so because I’m not sure how else to word that. Hahaha! Things with Benelli are going okay, I’m just not used to having a puppy around. As with a normal human baby, I don’t get the greatest sleep and I run on caffeine. It can be really difficult because it interferes with my Lupus and Fibro. But I know I wouldn’t have anything to look forward to if he wasn’t in my life. It’s just a challenge within a challenge. Haha!
Crate training is rough right now. He screams bloody murder when he’s in his crate. And I mean he is LOUD! Yes, I have put toys in there for him. Yes, I have covered it. Yes, I give him treats right before he goes in and some once he is in it. Yes, I have put in my worn shirt so it smells like me. So far the longest he has lasted is four hours and that is because I was running errands and not having to listen to him. But, I am determined and keep trying even though he doesn’t like it.
We are still working on stairs. He can go up them but can’t figure out how to go down. I suppose it doesn’t help that I always carry him both ways! 🙂
This last weekend my niece and I took him (and my three year old nephew) to the dog park for the first time. He was scared shitless. We were even in the small dog area! 🙂 I tried not to save him and pick him up much but at times I couldn’t help it.
So I am trying to get him socialized and experienced to things but I feel I need to be doing a better job, mostly on socializing with other dogs. I haven’t had a chance to bring him to doggy daycare yet but it is on our list!
He loves the leaves and of course due to his breed he can’t stop chasing them. And that includes cars. We just had our first snowfall but I’m waiting to take pics when there is more since we only have an inch or two.
I find myself wishing time away quite a bit, for him to be an adult and done with the puppy stage. But after that thought, I always make sure to correct and remind myself to stay in the present. Some days are easier than others. 🙂