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Wonderful Surprise
I can’t remember how I recently found these, but when Storm was young, there was a business doing professional photos for about 15 minutes for 20 bucks. The funds raised was going to be donated to a dog rescue. I’m so thankful I decided to do it and after years of moving, I can’t find the physical pictures that I paid extra for. 😦 But somehow, I found these somewhere. These are the digital pictures and I have not edited them in any way. Copyright Festive Studios in Sioux Falls, SD.
Wordless Wednesday – Kind of
The first few weeks of Storm’s absence was extremely difficult. It had been a while since something (or someone) that close to me had passed away. Some of my grandparents have passed but I wasn’t super close to them. This may have been my first real big death. And it SUCKS. It blows goats. But, as people have mentioned to me, it gets a little better with time. I know that I am certainly in a better state of mind than a month ago. I can actually talk about her now. I may be crying, but at least I can talk about her where before I just couldn’t do it. In fact, it is positive I will be crying because there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t cry about her.
I have been spending a lot of time by myself in my home. Yes, yes I know that isn’t healthy for me blah blah blah. But I haven’t been just curled up in a ball watching t.v., I either read or color. Definitely more of coloring.
And when my mind is thinking too much I turn to reading as I am then whisked away somewhere else while being someone else. Last week, my sister asked if I could start helping her out by picking up one of my youngest nephews from school, take him home and watching him for about an hour and half. Something again about me needing to get out of my house. I don’t want to but I know she would help me in a heartbeat so I said I would a couple days a week. So I started this week and have been ill every day so far. Haha! I swear it hasn’t been intentional! 🙂
I wanted to have something with me everyday with Storm’s ashes so I pulled up Amazon on my phone. I picked out a necklace, that also doubles as a key chain. The ratings were good with a price of only $10.99. It’s pretty heavy! I like it though. 🙂 A couple of my cousins are getting me something, but I will have to post a picture once I get it.
I must admit that I have already started to look at other dogs and pets. It seems a bit early, especially with how close I was to Storm. I think having something else to focus on, will help me focus on her less. I also think Storm’s whole leg issues made me be aware that she might not have much more time with me. So maybe my grieving started early?? There were quite a few times that I not only thought she was going to die but was questioning if I should put her to sleep. Those last four to five months were literally hell for us. And as much as I loathe that she is not here, I know she is in a better place now.
Oh So Pretty
My lack of Storm pictures has been bugging me but I think that is mostly due to the cold weather. I had some flowers in my possession (thanks to my kind neighbor) so decided to take advantage of them. Now, I realize my pictures are nothing too crazy, but I’m posting them anyway. 🙂
Snaps of Storm!
Getting back to my normal self
So mentally I am feeling better. I figure if my friends don’t want to be in my life, then I will just find some friends that care. Although it is somewhat difficult to do if you never go out and socialize. Ha! Most of the time I don’t feel well to go out. There are a couple writing groups that have had meet ups, but it’s usually only once a month and I tend to have more bad days than good in a month’s time. I will still try to go to future ones though, I’m not giving up.
At the beginning of the month my mom and I went to a showing of Cirque Du Soleil. I have never been to one before and it was BRILLIANT! Seriously, if you have the chance, GO. It is totally worth the money. Going to that with my mom really helped me get out of my depressed/negative funk.
Now how I feel physically is a different story. My Lupus is in a flare and has been mean to my stomach all of last week, making it feel nauseated and acidic. My fatigue has been horrible. I get about 12 hours at night then usually can’t stay awake during the day so I take a nap on top of the 12 hours. No, I’m not getting “too much” sleep. I listen to my body. Besides, with Storm wanting to go outside every 3-4 hours, I don’t have a chance. My Fibro areas have been painful and my Lupus has been making my joints ache. I know it will be fine though, the flare just needs to run its course.
Lately I have been obsessed with a book series about a demon chic that kicks ass! 🙂 The author is Pippa DaCosta and the first in the series is called Beyond the Veil. Seriously, it’s been ridiculous. It’s the only thing I do during the day and as soon as I finish one, I immediately go online and purchase the next in the series. It has been quite some time since an author has grabbed my attention like that. But it is possible that I can’t stop reading her books because I haven’t read any other demon series/books. I’m not sure if men would like it as it has some romance. But check it out! The prequel is a bit darker than the rest of the series, but the first in the series is currently free on Amazon. And that is how I became hooked. 🙂
I had a couple ‘snaps’ from Snapchat that I thought you guys might like. Here is one but I will make another post for a few more. I hope you guys are doing well and I will try to visit some of your blogs as I know I am behind! 🙂
Wordless Wednesday – New Pet
Hey everyone! Check out my new pet seal! Lol!
Stay….
Oh man, I am so far behind in the blogging world! I have been trying to keep up-to-date with everyone else’s blog and while also completely ignoring my blog. So pleeeeeeeease know that I not hatin’ on anyone–I love you all! 🙂
The last month I have been dealing with constant nausea, which I’m guessing is from my Lupus since this tends to happen often. It’s a bitch to get anything done when you have nausea. And if you are doing both? Forgetta’-bout it! Thankfully I didn’t have both but I still didn’t get anything done. Haha!
I went somewhere on Wednesday but I am not going to say where because I have pictures! 🙂 So hopefully I will post that blog soon.
This morning Storm and I woke up extra early and went for a walk to enjoy the cooler temperature. I can’t believe she actually stayed in her spot so I could get this shot! I have one a little closer but I like the long range pic the best.
Have a fabulous weekend!
P.S. I bet you can barely contain your excitement of finding out where I went, huh? 🙂
Wordless Wednesday – Park Pics
Since I awoke early today, I took Storm to the park near my home. We played, then I made her sit for pictures. Haha!
Dog Park Smiles
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