Getting back to my normal self

So mentally I am feeling better. I figure if my friends don’t want to be in my life, then I will just find some friends that care. Although it is somewhat difficult to do if you never go out and socialize. Ha! Most of the time I don’t feel well to go out. There are a couple writing groups that have had meet ups, but it’s usually only once a month and I tend to have more bad days than good in a month’s time. I will still try to go to future ones though, I’m not giving up.

At the beginning of the month my mom and I went to a showing of Cirque Du Soleil. I have never been to one before and it was BRILLIANT! Seriously, if you have the chance, GO. It is totally worth the money. Going to that with my mom really helped me get out of my depressed/negative funk.

Now how I feel physically is a different story. My Lupus is in a flare and has been mean to my stomach all of last week, making it feel nauseated and acidic. My fatigue has been horrible. I get about 12 hours at night then usually can’t stay awake during the day so I take a nap on top of the 12 hours. No, I’m not getting “too much” sleep. I listen to my body. Besides, with Storm wanting to go outside every 3-4 hours, I don’t have a chance. My Fibro areas have been painful and my Lupus has been making my joints ache. I know it will be fine though, the flare just needs to run its course.

Lately I have been obsessed with a book series about a demon chic that kicks ass! 🙂 The author is Pippa DaCosta and the first in the series is called Beyond the Veil. Seriously, it’s been ridiculous. It’s the only thing I do during the day and as soon as I finish one, I immediately go online and purchase the next in the series. It has been quite some time since an author has grabbed my attention like that. But it is possible that I can’t stop reading her books because I haven’t read any other demon series/books. I’m not sure if men would like it as it has some romance. But check it out! The prequel is a bit darker than the rest of the series, but the first in the series is currently free on Amazon. And that is how I became hooked. 🙂

I had a couple ‘snaps’ from Snapchat that I thought you guys might like. Here is one but I will make another post for a few more. I hope you guys are doing well and I will try to visit some of your blogs as I know I am behind! 🙂

LOL sometimes it is difficult to tell which way she is looking!
LOL sometimes it is difficult to tell which way she is looking!
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Book Review – How To Be Sick

I normally don’t write book reviews on here but felt I needed to get the word out about a recent one that I finished. Mostly because it has to do with being ill/sick and I know some Spoonies/Lupies follow me. The book I am talking about is called, How to be Sick by Toni Bernhard.

As pictured, I bought the paperback version but you can also purchase this book as an e-book or Audiobook. I like to get my “nerd” on and highlight things to remember, and sometimes an electronic highlighter just doesn’t cut it (I love office supplies!). 🙂

I am pretty much making this my sickness Bible. Toni offers a great amount of examples which helps the reader think of ways they can apply it to their lives. And if you are a Byron Katie fan, Toni mentions her and includes some of her quotes.

Here is a list of the chapters to give you a better example of what you will be reading.

  1. Getting sick – A romantic trip to Paris
  2. Staying sick – This can’t be happening to me
  3. The Buddha tells it like it is
  4. The Universal Law of Impermanence
  5. Who is sick?
  6. Finding joy in the life you can no longer lead
  7. Soothing the body, mind and heart
  8. Using compassion to alleviate your suffering
  9. Facing the ups and downs of chronic illness with equanimity
  10. Getting off the wheel of suffering
  11. Tonglen – Spinning straw into gold
  12. With our thoughts we make the world
  13. Healing the mind by living in the present moment
  14. What to do when (it seems) you can’t do anything
  15. Zen helps
  16. Communicating with care
  17. The struggle to find community in isolation

As the last chapter finishes, the author has a guide to help with specific challenges (I loved this part!!). A couple challenges include: Blaming yourself for being sick, feeling ignored by family and friends, and suffering due to uncertainty about the future.

I want to thank my cousin, Rebecca, for recommending this book. And of course, I would like to thank the author for writing it. 🙂 The author has two other books for sale, How to Wake Up and How to Live Well. I currently have How to Live Well on my bookshelf and can’t wait to start it! 🙂

 

 

Lupus and Fibromyalgia

Well, so much for trying to get blogs written for Lupus Awareness Month! Hahaha! Oh well, at least I was able to get a couple done. And that is just how a person with Lupus needs to think; if it’s not done, then it’s not done and not to fret about what did not get done that day. However, I am fully aware that this easier said than done. At times I struggle with the frustration of how to let things go and\or take one day at a time. And honestly I don’t know if I would have learned these lessons, if not for Lupus.

This month is also Fibromyalgia Awareness Month with the National Awareness Day being May 12th!

Lupus and Fibromyalgia are so similar that some days I can’t tell which disease I am dealing with. Below are some Fibromyalgia symptoms

Thank you for taking the time to read these awareness posts! And remember, knowledge is POWER! 🙂

World Lupus Day

 

Yes, today is World Lupus Day! Get the word out as much as you can!

Flares are a bitch. You never know how long it will last or when it decides to pop up. In high school, I always became sick with something right when school would start up in September. I wasn’t diagnosed yet but we just blamed it on bad luck. When was I diagnosed? In August, just a few weeks shy of starting college as a freshman. My mom and I can’t help but wonder if the stress of going back to school is what caused me to be sick around that time. And that perhaps, in high school I had Lupus all along.

Isn’t the common flare trigger above just crazy? But it is the truth; Lupus really restricts your life. Consider no longer being able to spend hours outside in the sun without the proper equipment such as sun block, a hat, shade and clothing that covers most of your body. Not only does the sun bother me but the heat (or humidity) as well. If I spend an amount of time in the heat, I usually need to go somewhere with cool air and nap otherwise I am basically a zombie.

That is all I can do for now. Thanks for reading! 🙂

Lupus Awareness Month

For the month of May I was going to post something about Lupus every day, but my Lupus had other ideas! All of last week I felt like crap. I was nauseated, had a fever and wicked heartburn. I got heartburn from eating peanut butter toast with a glass of water. And no, I am not pregnant because there is another part of the equation that is missing for me to be pregnant. Those symptoms sound very much like the flu, yes? That is what I deal with as part of my Lupus. Sometimes I’m not even sure what my nausea is from, it could be the disease itself or my medications.

Literally, everything is a SURPRISE with Lupus. Including when it decides to be active, or when it decides to take it down a notch. It is extremely frustrating if you are a planner, like yours truly. It didn’t bother me so much when it wasn’t too active while I held a full time job. But ever since when my Lupus became more active and it forced me to stop working, I have had to learn to fly by the seat of my pants. I have had to take one day at a time and sometimes even one moment at a time.

So NOW for the month of May, I plan on posting bits of info and/or pictures relating to my illness. I can’t promise you anything but will try my darn hardest. 🙂

 

On Facebook you can change your profile picture to help raise awareness. Yes, this is me.
On Facebook you can change your profile picture to help raise awareness. Yes, this is me.

 

What happens to someone with Lupus (taken from Lupus and Me Facebook page)
What happens to someone with Lupus (taken from Lupus and Me Facebook page)